Best friend
#30DaysWritingChallenge #Day10
It’s one of important elements in my life that makes my life balance, that keeps me sane.
Friends; I don’t have have a lot because it’s not easy to be my friend with my unique personalities. It’s not me who’s been being picky for deciding who can be my friends and who cannot, but the circumstances and the process.
Anyway, since my friends are only few hundreds (or maybe only 100? it can really be), my best friends are more fewer. They got the title of Elma’s best friends after having ups and downs with me and they don’t complain and they don’t disappear and they don’t give up for facing my personalities, but can laugh and cry with me, instead. The same things applied to me too; so if you feel that I don’ t complain, I don’t disappear, and I can laugh and cry with you, may see me as your best friends; or not.
In my whole life, I’ve lost some best friends because of the changing of life and that’s considered natural and easily acceptable. Best friend(s) that turned into (just) friend(s) are normal. However, once I lost a best friend after a fight of hearts. I really regretted that and it was really difficult for me to accept the fact that I lost this best friend since this friend had been going through a lot of things with me. Until today, honestly, I still hope that this friend can come back to my life. So, if you read this, I want to say sorry that I cannot reach you out first because I don’t know where to start and I don’t know why you avoided me on the first place. It’s been almost a year. Some parts of me still think that you’re one of my best friend. If we cannot make it up, then no worries that you’ve become a best friend that has 99% of good memory in my life. Thank you for that.
Meanwhile, my “updated” best friends by today… ummm… by the time I write this post, I can say that I have three to six best friends. I won’t write the exact number, but it’s surely between 1 to 6.
Each of them has their own role in keeping my life in shape.
I’d like to say thank YOU so MUCH for keeping my life bright, thank YOU for re-light me up when I entered the dark times, thank YOU for listening to my cries and stories, thank YOU for being there, thank YOU for your time, thank YOU for finding ways to entertain me, thank YOU for the laughter, thank YOU for the dreams, thank YOU for the hope, thank YOU for the words.
I owe YOU a lot.
YOU have poured me with so much love, so I’ve been trying to give more to you as I’ve been feeling very grateful for having (a) best friend(s) like YOU.
I hope I’ve been doing good to you as well.
You are the best-est.
Deep down, I cannot stop to say “I love this friend so much that I don’t wanna lose this friend” for many times after I found you, but sorry that I rarely (or even never?) say it directly.
Let’s walk further, let’s keep supporting each other.
Xx,
-el
