Life Medicine
Do you remember the first time you learned to gulp down a pill to cure your ill? Or you’re still struggling on it?
Lately, I’ve been reflecting on my current life. It’s been like having another pill after the one I struggled to be swallowed and have another one and it goes on.
Some bitter moments can’t be avoided and people do change. And those things make me uncomfortable in the first place. I want to run away, I feel insecure, I think that I can’t fit the present life.
This is adult-ing process. Changes are everywhere, here and there.
The ones who have always been there when I needed cheerleaders and prayers, they slowly disappeared into their changing life, leaving me feeling left alone. While actually there are newcomers in my life that I should embrace gracefully.
The habits that were rarely absent from daily life became things that I wait to be happen soon with a room in my heart that is ready to be disappointed if it’s cancelled in last minute. While actually I can do new things that is more fixed.
The necessities that were no longer enough to challenge me to be better and grow wiser. I need to spread my wing and fly higher, which results in having more necessities that are not as simple as in the past.
The time that runs way too fast. This is a scary fact that I realize everyday because a week feels like only one or two days now. In 4 months, 2020 is approaching. Dang.
Those things above are the medicines or the pills of life that I should gulp down until I accustomed to this adult life.
They’re bitter, indeed. But I want to get my good health and balance again to live this life smoothly — nope, that won’t happen, but at least happily and in with good body and healthy soul.
So, I keep taking those pills daily as I cannot avoid to be an adult. Taking life medicine is a nice challenge to see how strong, brave, brainy, and positive I am as a growing human being.
Once I cannot take one of the pills, then there’s something wrong, that I get weak and need immune booster… or I try to deny the change in life — a thing that I shouldn’t do. Once I cannot help myself to swallow the pills, I will find humans with positivity and make them helping me finish the pills that are left behind; because I realize that in some points of life, I cannot stand on my own. I need some helping hands.
Xx —
el
